Caught by Cousin...

Mine begins when I was 12 yrs old (I'm now 40). I remember reading a
letter in my dad's Penthouse magazine from a guy that liked wearing
pantyhose while masturbating. The next time I was in the bathroom and
saw a pair of my sister's pantyhose hanging up to dry I decided to try
them on. Felt so good I was hooked. My sis was 2 yrs older than me and
I'd started spying on her - trying to see her naked. I remember
thinking how lucky she was to be able to wear things like pantyhose that
felt so good. I remember that I began to wonder what it must be like to
be "forced" by society to have to wear things like dresses and bras -
things that made you feel vulnerable and submissive (though I didn't use
those words back then - these weren't even really conscious thoughts -
didn't realize it till much later).

Over the following weeks I began to try on her other clothes - panties,
bras, slips, dresses - wondering what it would be like if I had to wear
such things. They felt great and really turned me on. As the weeks
went by I began to realize how much power girls had to decide who
and when they were going to have sex with and I began to wish I'd
been born a girl.

The best time of my life was when I was 16 yrs old and my sis went
off to college. My folks would go away most weekends to a house we
had in the mountains but I had a weekend job so I'd stay home alone.
I'd get dressed up as soon as they'd leave and stay that way almost
all weekend (except when I had to go to work). I absolutely loved
being able to sleep in my sister's panties and nighty - trying on
her make up and nail polish - imagining I was getting ready to go
out on a date. We had a full length wall to wall mirror in the
living room and I loved dressing in different outfits, putting on
some music and dancing around while watching myself. Seeing how
different skirts and dresses would rise up when I'd twirl around -
giving a glimpse of my panties.

I was 14 yrs old I got caught one time. It was summer. My sister was
down the shore for a few days with some friends. Both of my parents
worked so I had the house to myself for most of the day till my folks
got home. I had forgotten that a few days before my cousin Carol
(female, same age as my sis - 16) was going to come over to drop off
a bike. Anyway, it was shortly after lunchtime. I was in my sister's
room and had put on a white tennis skirt, maroon long sleeved leotard,
panties, bra, lipstick and eyeshadow.

Now, my sis used to go horseback riding when she was younger and
even though at this time she wasn't riding, she still had this riding
crop that I had found in her closet. It was leather with a nice
thin stiff handle with a rounded ball on the end of the handle a lil
smaller than a ping pong ball. I loved it. It wasn't too thick and
it felt perfect when I used it to fuck myself with. That particular
day I had it up my "pussy" as I stood in front of my sister's mirror
all dressed up. I was talking to myself saying things like "oh yes,
I'm such a sexy girl. Oh fuck me, fuck my pussy" ...imagining I was
with some cute guy who was fucking me when I thought I heard a noise
behind me. The door to my sister's room was wide open as I wasn't
expecting anyone but the mirror wasn't angled to the door so I didn't
see anyone coming down the hall.

When I heard the noise I turned around and looked out of my sister's
door down the hall but didn't see anyone. I figured it was just my
imagination and finished what I was doing and cleaned up. About an
hour later my mother called from work. She asked me "Did you know
Carol came by the house earlier to drop off your sisters bike?" I
said "No, I didn't hear her". Then my mom dropped the bomb. She
said "Were you in your sister's room wearing her clothes?" I
said "Of course not!" Mom said "Carol said you were" Now Carol (was
always sort of the black sheep of the family and always getting in
trouble. Smoking cigarettes, smoking pot, etc...and my mom was always
in denial about everything. she always wanted everything to be
perfect. So I said to her "Carol must be lying. Why would I be wearing
my sister's clothes" Mom dropped the subject then and she never
mentioned it again.

I was really worried about my cousin having seen me and whether my folks
would say anything to me about it and, if they did, what they would do.
When they got home that night though nothing was said so I figured my
mom believed me that my cousin was making stuff up. A few days later my
aunt asked if I'd be interested in cutting her lawn that summer. I said
ok and she gave me a key. I was to ride my bike to her house (in the
next town) one day during the week and use her lawnmower. The first day
was about 2 weeks after my cousin had caught me. It was the middle of
the week (a Wednesday I think) and both she and my uncle worked. My
cousin was off somewhere and her older sister (who was 18 then) was at
college taking some summer classes.

After I finished cutting the grass and putting the mower away I went
inside to cool off. I was hot and sweaty and took a shower to cool
off but didn't want to put on my sweaty clothes right away so i
walked around the house in just a towel. I went into my cousin's
room to check out her clothes (her older sis had taken almost all of
her things to college) and was surprised when I saw a pair of
panties and a bra laying on the bed. I sniffed the panties but they
were clean. I put them on along with the bra and then found a pretty
sundress in the closet which I also put on. I then checked myself
out in the mirror and rubbed my hard boy-clit thru the dress and
panties. Then I decided to do some more snooping and began going
thru her dresser drawers. I found a photo album and began flipping
thru it. Most of the pix were nothing special but then towards the
back I found some pix of my cousin in her bra and panties (not the
ones I was wearing). The pix seemed to have been taken during a ski
trip her class had taken (a weekend high school class trip) earlier
that year.

There were about a half dozen pix - most of her just posing but two
of her with a boy - nothing big, just hugging in one and kissing in
the other - but they were both in their underwear - he in jockeys
and she in bra and panties. I got so turned on looking at these pix
that I came pretty quick and almost messed the panties and dress I
was wearing. I cleaned myself up and put everything back where I'd
found it.

Now my folks and my aunt and uncle shared a weekend home in the
mountains that we used to go to almost every weekend. That weekend
while we were up there I happened to have our dog sitting on my lap
in the evening. I was wearing just a pair of shorts and a t-shirt and
everyone else was in their pj's (my sis and my cousin were wearing
nightgowns that were about mid-thigh length). My cousin came over to me
and said she wanted to play with the dog. I said ok and she bent
over in front of me to lift her from my lap. When she did I could see
right down the front of her nightgown and I had a perfect view of her
tits just hanging there. No one else noticed because you had to be rite
in front of her to see down her nightgown but I got an instant hard-
on. She didn't say anything but, when she picked our dog up and stood
up she smiled at me.

Later that night everyone else had gone to sleep except her and me.
We were watching TV. She was laying on the couch and I was sitting
sideways on a chair. The couch was on the other side of the room and
a little behind the chair so I had to turn around to see her. At one
point I turned around to say I was going to bed and before I said
anything I saw that she'd apparently fallen asleep and rolled over
facing away from me. Her night gown had lifted up above her ass and
I could see her panty covered ass totally exposed. I took my cock
out of my shorts and jerked off just looking at her.

Over the next few weeks this pattern continued. I'd go over to my
aunts house in the middle of the week to cut her lawn and when I
finished would go into my cousins room where I'd find some bras and
panties laying on her bed. I'd put them on along with some of her
other clothes - jeans, tops, dresses, skirts - and jerk off. On the
weekends when we were at the mountain house she'd have various excuses
to lean over in front of me so I could see down her nightgown and
later when everyone had gone to bed and it was just her and me watching
late night tv she'd invariably position herself at some point so that
I'd see her panty covered ass or crotch. I had a feeling she was doing
this on purpose but, being only 14 and very shy, I wasn't entirely sure
- plus I wasn't sure that, even if she was doing it on purpose she
wanted me to do anything or was just teasing me. I felt it was just
subtle enough to allow her to say it was all accidental and to squeal
on me to my folks if I actually did anything.

It was driving me nuts and I couldn't stand it much longer. Then one
day when I was at my aunts and had finished cutting her lawn I was
in my cousins room wearing a dress of hers and some panties and bra
when I happened to look out her window. I saw my cousin come home on
her bike. I freaked - she was always over her friend's house at this
time of the day. I knew I didn't have time to change so I ran to the
bathroom before she got inside. Once there I locked the door and
began changing back to my regular clothes. I figured I'd hide the
dress, bra and panties in the hamper till I had a chance to put them
back and if I didn't my aunt would just wash them thinking my cousin
had worn them and hoped my cousin wouldn't notice them missing in the
meantime. What I'd forgotten though was that the bra and panties I was
wearing were the ones my cousin had left on her bed. When she came in I
heard her calling me to see if I was there. I replied that I was in
the bathroom and would be out in a sec. When I came out she was in
kitchen getting something to drink. I was now dressed in my regular
clothes. she asked me if I was finished with the lawn and I said i
was. Then she asked me if she could have her bra and panties back. I
nearly wet myself! With my best dumb look on my face (not hard at
that moment) I racked my brain for a response and came up with "Huh?"

She said "My bra and panties. I left them on my bed before I left
and you're the only one who's been here since then so I know you
took them" I knew I'd been busted but I still tried to worm my way
out and said "I don't know what you're talking about" Then she
screamed at me and said "Bullshit! where are they!" I just
mumbled "In the hamper" before realizing that if she went into the
bathroom and opened the hamper she'd also find the dress I'd been
wearing. Which is exactly what happened. She asked me "Did you get
them dirty?" I said "No" and she went to the bathroom. I freaked at
that point and followed her, hoping to get them out of the hamper
before she saw her dress in there too but no such luck. She got
there first and when she saw the dress she turned to me and
said "You were wearing my dress too!? This doesn't get washed. You
could have ruined it!"

I said "Sorry" and just looked down at the floor. The she
said "What's wrong with you anyway. Are you gay? Do you want to be a
girl? Is that why you like to wear girls clothes?" I wasn't sure
what to say. Part of me did want to be a girl. But part of me also
was also turned on by girls. I loved jerking off while spying
on my sister or when my I'd look down my cousins nightgown and see
her tits. All I could do was mumble "I like girls".

She put her hand on the back of my neck and gently steered me to the
family room and sat me on the couch. She looked at her dress, bra
and panties and then looked at me.
"You say you like girls. Have you ever had sex with a girl?"
I shook my head no.
"Have you ever even kissed a girl?"
Again, I shook my head no.
"Have you ever seen a girl naked in person? Not just pictures in a
magazine?"
I nodded yes.
"Who" she asked.
I said "Just some girls"
"Girls? more than one? what...were you peeking in the girls
lockerroom?"
I nodded...I couldn't look her in the eye...i was so embarrassed.
"Peeking in the bathrooms?"
nod
"When they're peeing?"
nod
"And showering?"
nod
"At your sister?"
nod...oh god...did I just tell her that I peeked at my sister! Now i
looked up at her.

My cousin was smiling at me. she sat down on the couch next to me.
She was sitting with her legs crossed "Indian style" and her shorts
were pulled tight against her crotch. I could see "camel toe" (though
we didn't call it that back then) and I began to get aroused. She was
holding the panties I'd been wearing in her hand - her hand resting
on her thigh. My eyes shifted constantly from the panties to my
cousins crotch. She asked me "What did you see when you peeked at
your sister?"
I said "Just her showering and stuff"
"Stuff?" she asked.
"Yeah, just, you know, drying off and..."
"And...what...peeing?"
I nodded.
"Anything else?"
"Well..." I began.
"What...tell me...I won't say anything"
"I saw her and her boyfriend a few months ago in our parents bedroom
doing stuff."
"What were they doing" she asked.
"You know...making out."
"Just making out?"
"Well..."
Her other hand had now drifted to her crotch. One finger ever so
lightly brushing against her slit. "Were they having sex?" she asked.
I nodded.
Her hand pressed a little harder against her crotch.
"What were they doing?"
"They were doing it." I said...getting more turned on.
"Doing what" she asked...knowing full well but wanting to hear it
from my own mouth.
"They were fucking" I said.
"You saw your sister fucking her boyfriend?" she asked
I nodded
"You saw his dick in her pussy?"
nod
"Was he on top?" she asked
"Not at first" I said
Her hand pressed a little harder into her crotch. My eyes were moving
in a triangle - from her face, to her crotch, to her hand holding
the panties and back to her face. My own dick was uncomfortable in
my shorts. I was afraid to move though for fear it would tent up and
become more obvious than it already must have been.
"Your sister was on top of him"
nod
"Riding up and down on his dick?"
nod
"And what did you do?"
"I..."
"You were jerking off watching them weren't you?" Carol asked.
nod
I could now see a small damp spot forming on my cousin's crotch.
"You wanted to join in with them didn't you" she asked
nod
"Would you have sucked your sisters tits?"
"Yes" I said
"Would you have eaten her pussy?"
"Yes"
"While he was fucking her?"
"yes"
"Would you have sucked her juice off his dick?"
"yes"
"I bet later on you took her panties and the clothes she wore and
put them on didn't you"
Oh god...it was like she was there and saw me! I had...the very
next day when my sister was gone I took her panties and the
nightgown she'd been wearing out of the hamper and put them on and
imagined I was her fucking her boyfriend. I nodded yes to my
cousins question.
Suddenly she tossed the panties into my lap. I almost came rite
then. I looked at her. "Put them on" she said.
"I...."
"Go on...I won't tell anyone if you put them on."
I didn't know if she meant she wouldn't tell anyone that I'd been
wearing them earlier, or that she wouldn't tell anyone that I watched
my sister fucking her boyfriend and wished I could help her suck his
dick or if she meant she wouldn't tell anyone any of it.
I looked back at the panties in my lap and then the dress and bra
landed in my lap too. "Put it all on" my cousin said. I looked at
her and she was smiling. I looked down at her crotch and she quickly
pulled her shorts and panties to one side flashing me her pussy for
a second.
"Go on...put it on and I'll show you more."
My heart was pounding as I stood up and walked to the bathroom.

My heart was pounding. Part of me was excited at the idea of maybe
seeing my cousin naked (I didn't dare hope that I'd actually get to
have sex with her) but part of me was terrified that she'd humiliate
me and tell my family about what a sick pervert I was. I was in a fog
as I closed the bathroom door and seemed to be on automatic pilot as I
stripped off my shorts, underwear and t-shirt and slipped on the bra
and panties. As the dress slipped over my head I remember feeling like
a change had come over me. I felt like I was a girl. I looked at
myself in the mirror, swished my hips and giggled. I walked out of the
bathroom and down the hall to my cousin's bedroom. As I went in I put
my hands over my face, suddenly hugely embarrassed. I heard my cousin
giggle and say "you look very pretty"

I dropped my hands and looked at her. She was wearing only a bra and
panties - having taken off her shorts and t-shirt. I began to get hard
and she noticed the way the dress was poking out in front and giggled
again. She told me to sit in the chair in front of her vanity and took
out some lipstick and began to put it on my lips. As she did so she
was whispering in my ear things like: "You make such a pretty girl. I
bet you wish you had a pussy and could fuck some cute boy. I bet you
wish you could be a little slut and suck off your boyfriend"

When she finished putting on the lipstick she stepped back and smiled.
she ran her hands up and down her own body rubbing her tits and her
crotch which I could see was damp. The crotch of her panties showed a
wet spot and I could smell her sex from where I sat. She smiled
lewdly at me and as she cupped her tits asked "Do you want to see
these?" I nodded. She said "I bet you do" I thought she was going to
just tease me and not show me anything but she turned around and
unhooked her bra and let it fall. Then she turned around and faced me
with her hands covering her tits. She slowly took one hand away and
flashed me briefly. then took the other hand. She was teasing me
horribly. I was aching to see her tits. Finally, after giving me just
brief flashes she took her hands away completely pinching her nipples
hard as she did so and stood before me wearing nothing but her panties.

My hand went to my own crotch and I started to rub my aching prick but
she smacked my hand and said "Naughty girl, no playing with yourself
till I say so". She rubbed her tits and pinched her nipples and asked
me if I liked them. I nodded. She said "You wish you had nice tits
like these?" I nodded again. She said "Well say it then you little
sissy". I said "I wish I had nice tits like you". she moved closer to
me. I was still sitting and her crotch was only inches from my face.
the smell of her sex was stronger. I wanted to bury my face in her
crotch. She reached down and rubbed her cunt thru her panties and said
"Go on, say what else you want"

I said "I wish I had a pussy like yours too." Then it all just
came tumbling out of me. I said "I wish I was a girl. I wish I could
get fucked and suck a cock and be a slut. I want to spread my legs and
feel some hot guy hold me in his strong arms and fuck me hard" I cant
remember what else I babbled but it was all along the same lines. I
was telling her how much I wanted to feel a hard cock in my mouth and
in my cunt. How I wanted to flash boys and tease them and let them
peek up my skirt and see my panties. As I was saying all this Carol
slipped her hand inside her panties and rubbed faster and then finally
let her panties fall to the floor. I was staring at her naked cunt and
I couldn't help myself. I reached out and grabbed her hips and buried
my face in her cunt. I began kissing and licking her pussy. My first
taste of cunt. She began to orgasm and I could taste her juices
on my tongue. She reached down and pulled up my dress and rubbed
my cock as her knees got weak and she sank to the floor. I came almost
as soon as she touched my cock and my cum soaked the panties I was
wearing.

We stayed that way for a minute or two gathering our senses. The she
said "You nasty little slut. Look at the mess you made in my panties.
Take them off right now before you ruin my dress." I stood up and
while holding the dress up above my waist I pulled the panties down.
This was the first time I'd been "naked" in front of a girl since I
was a toddler. My cock was shrinking but she stared at it and I began
to feel like I would get hard again in a couple of minutes. I took the
panties off and held them out to her. she said "don't give them to me.
Clean your cum off them yourself." I turned to go back to the
bathroom but she said "No. Clean them with your tongue. Eat your own
cum." When I looked at her with unbelieving eyes she said "Pretend its
your boyfriend's cum and eat it. You know you want to." I looked down
at the cum in the panties. I could smell it and it began to turn me
on. I stuck out my tongue and dipped it in the largest pool and tasted
it. It was salty (as I knew it would be having tasted my pre-cum
before a few times). She smiled at me and said "Yeah, that's right
you little fag. Lick your cum like a good cocksucker slut". I stuck
my tongue out and began to lick the cum off in earnest. Sucking it
from the nylon material. I moaned and she said "MMMmmmm...tastes
good doesn't it?" I looked at her and smiled.

She got up and went to her bed and laid down. Spreading her legs she
began to rub her cunt. My cock was quickly rising again and she patted
the bed indicating that I should lay down next to her. I was shaking
like a leaf. There I was in a dress holding a pair of cum soaked panties
which I'd just licked clean in front of my cousin who was laying naked
on her bed. It was something I had fantasized about for years but now
that it was really in front of me I was scared shitless. Would she tell
on me - would she humiliate me - did she want to have sex or was she
just teasing me - if she wanted to fuck would I know what to do - would
I screw it up and, if I did would she make fun of me even more? All
these thoughts were running thru my head as I approached her on the bed.
I laid down next to her and she took my hand gently and put it on her tit.
She smiled at me and moved her hand under the dress I was wearing and
began to rub my cock which was quickly coming back to life after having
cum a few minutes before (Aaaahhh the wonder of youth).

As I played with her tit and she began stroking me. She asked me "Do
you like girls or are you gay?" I said "I like girls, I just sometimes
wish I was one" Carol said "You've never fucked anyone have you?" I
shook my head no. By now I was hard again. She took my hand from her
tit and moved it lower to her pussy. She took my index finger and
placed it on her clit and moved it around, showing me how to rub it.
"That's my clit" she said. "You know what a clit is?" I nodded, having
read a lot of my dad's penthouse and playboy magazines.

Then she moved my finger to her pussy. If I hadn't cum just a couple
of minutes ago I probably would have cum immediately. She had me stick
my finger in her cunt which was soaking wet and began moving my hand
back and forth so I was finger fucking her. "Suck my tits" she said. I
moved my head down and held her tit in my other hand and began sucking
on her nipple. After a few minutes of this she rolled me on my back
and pushed my dress up over my hips. As she straddled me aiming my
dick at her cunt she said "This is just between us ok. And this is
just a one time thing you understand. After this, you act like nothing
ever happened and don't expect that it'll ever happen again. Got it?"
I nodded my head in understanding and she lowered herself onto my cock.

The feeling was incredible. My cock was buried in my cousin's hot
wet cunt. She stayed like that for a moment letting me savor the feel
and then began to rock her hips back and forth. She leaned forward so
her tits were over my mouth and said again, "Suck my tits". I did as
she instructed and tried everything to hold off cumming. Even though I'd
cum a few minutes earlier I didn't think I could hold off much longer.
She began riding my cock, Grinding her pelvis against my pubic bone.
"Pinch them, bite them, but not too hard" she said. As I did so she
began moaning and said "Ohhh yes, mmmmmmmmm I'm cumming" That was all
it took. I began to cum also. She must have known by the look on my
face and she ground her cunt down even harder as I filled her pussy
with a small load. After I finished I freaked. I said "Oh shit, did i
just make you pregnant?" She laughed and said "Don't worry, I'm on the
pill." Then she moved up and sat on my face and told me to lick her
pussy. I did and tasted the few drops of cum I'd just shot in her. She
moved around and directed me to lick her clit. My first taste of cunt
and I liked it. Especially knowing that I'd just fucked this cunt and
was tasting my own cum mixed with her juices.

It took a little while and just as I was beginning to think that my
tongue and jaw were getting a little tired she finally came again. In
the meantime, however, the erotic nature of what we were doing got me
hard again. I couldn't believe that I was hard for the third time in
about an hour but there it was, poking up the front of "my" dress.
After my cousin finished her orgasm she lay down next to me and noticed
my hardon. She giggled and said "Boy you're a horny little thing" She
pushed my dress up again and began stroking my dick. She masturbated
me to another orgasm. This one was dry however. My balls having
already been emptied by my previous two orgasms.

We laid there a few minutes and then she realized the time and said
"Oh shit, my mom will be home in less than an hour." She told me I
smelled like pussy and that I should go take a shower. When I came out
i dressed in my regular clothes. I asked her what she did with the
dress, bra and panties and she said she threw them in the washing
machine since they were all sweaty and cum stained. She kissed me on
the cheek and told me I'd better get going and reminded me that this
was a one time thing and that "it never happened". I smiled and said
ok. Hoping that, maybe...just maybe...if I was a good "girl" and kept
quite she might decide to play again sometime.

One thing in retrospect that I regret however, was that I never told my
cousin "thank you" for "de-virginizing" me and for helping me to live
out what, to that point, had been my ultimate fantasy. When I next saw
her (that weekend at our weekend house in the mountains) she did, in
fact, act like nothing had ever happened between us and treated me as
she always had (like her younger cousin) - which is to say she
basically pretty much ignored me. But that evening when everyone else
had gone to sleep and she and I were watching TV, she leaned over to
pick up a magazine next to my chair and I had a good look down the front
of her nightgown at her naked tits. When she stood up she saw me peeking
down her nightgown and smiled and went back to the couch and began
reading. I was hard and thought I'd see how serious she'd been about
that "one time thing" and slipped my cock out of the leg hole of my
shorts and began slowly stroking it. Finally she happened to look up
from the magazine and glanced at me. She simply said "No" and went to
her room.

That was that. We went back to the way things were. She'd occasionally
flash me "accidentally" as before but would not allow me to touch
her or to jerk off in front of her. But I continued hoping that one
day, she might change her mind.


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